Friday, 24 May 2013

1 week of mid-sem break

When I blog about events that happened some time ago, I tend to forget the details, little things, that mean a lot sometimes. I will also tend to remember only the good, rarely the bad. Like, eg, MKTH, think it went all well? NO. The makeup by the sponsor was horrible, even a makeup newbie like me did better LOL. nyways, this is some of the things I did for that 1 week break :) 

At our fave hang out spot. Setia SB, the one with the drive-through.
My kehpohs ♥


Machis! 


Peter didi!
Can be a better meetup session, I like how we just sip our drinks, sharing life stories, laugh, joke and all

Went to visit STKCU. no group photo awws. Selca :P flaw of this pic? jeans look baggy at the pockets. Didn't straighten it before snapping this LOL. Good to be back there, the sight of Pn Nita, the juniors, school compound, ahh~ :)


Highlight of the week. Thanksgiving dinner at Klin's place. Although not many ppl turned up, we had a blast! Yummy dinner

Sharing life stories






Guitarist and Song leader of the evening



Skype session with Wynne ♥ She'll be back in JUNE!


SUPER LATE POST. These were before week 8 and now it's almost week 14 :o *phailed blogger*

Saturday, 4 May 2013

Lately..

Starting off with a song which means a lot to me. 

Failure in Disguise
Lyrics:

Have you ever felt like you were the only one on the road?
Have you ever wondered, "Where has everybody gone?"
Have you ever felt abandoned?
Have you ever felt alone?


Have you ever felt like just crying out for help?
And then did you wonder "Will they even understand?"
Have you ever felt a pain you could not bear?
But the world, it goes around just fine anyway.

Well I, I hear your cry,
And I, I feel your pain;
I know you try so hard
To make things right,
To overcome
This endless fight
Just don't give up.

Have you ever felt like you just stepped over the line?
And then, did you just pretend that everything was fine?
Have you ever felt nobody knows who you are?
Have you ever felt like a failure in disguise?


I won't give up.
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okay. It was more than not having wifi in hostel on the 1st of May. When did I ever get upset over little things like this? Beyond those happy pictures, you who know me, see a tired me, I'm tired, more than just physical tiredness. It's not those events, but the ppl that tires me. So hard to describe it. I thought I was fine, making new friends have never been this hard, I mean, genuine good friends. I try to be a good friend to everyone, be sincere. I don't expect to be treated the same in return but pls don't mess with me, your life goes on perfectly fine with or without me, true? Deep inside my heart, I know who is sincere, it breaks me when you pretend to be. I feel so demotivated around you, and I try to be as encouraging as I can to you, tiring anot? Again, I know I'm imperfect, very flawed, I forgive as my Heavenly Father has forgiven me. 
"Show me how to love like You have loved me."

All these opened up my eyes, I'm spending more time with ppl who matter. I don't have to fake a smile, don't have to be afraid to open up and say "hey, I'm not doing too well". It's a learning process for me. I also miss my loved ones not-so-far and really far so much. I'm grateful for every thoughtful text, twit, WA, anything from all of you. Sorry if I made you worried, I'm back on my feet with your help and God's grace :)  
Thanks for reading ♥